Question meme?

[imaginemeandyuu]

I apparently broke 1000 comments a few minutes ago so uh QUESTION MEME! Ask me questions and I will ramble at you and then ask you questions back. We go back and forth until we exhaust ourselves!

Just for Alma Karma.

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[outofthemud]

Probably coping with the loss of the war. He's fallen into a functional routine and tell others that they're done with it and it doesn't matter, but really that and repaying Allen were his new reasons to live after the Alma Arc. And he had only been resyynchronized and back with the Order and the war for like, a day before he died. And he is still not over that! So he clings to his Exorcist uniform and is biased against the Noah/ex-Noah and is generally still stuck in that mentality.

SO RE: TWO HAVES ONE SOUL how does that work as far as consciousness goes? Is Ladyma just a lingering identity and Alma the dominate half or what.

[imaginemeandyuu]

O-oh Kanda.

Alma's the dominant half at about 75% with Ladyma being about 25%! It's sort of like. I GUESS IT IS BEST TO PUT IT is somewhat like with a single life, I remember who I was when I was 20 or 15 or even 10, and that person was "me", but the motivations and feelings that drove what I did and said and how I acted then weren't the same as they are now due to different levels of maturity, different physiology, different social experiences around me, etc. I may even remember why and how I felt it and still feel some of the same drive but it's still in the past.

AT THE SAME TIME, for Alma, although it's made up of the same pieces, it isn't as simple as that by any means because of how short a life 'this' Alma has had, how few experiences he has had in life to push anything back in the past... the fact that Ladyma was way more experienced and adult than he is so instead of the normal method of maturity and growth occurring as you gather more and different experiences, whenever he's trying to draw on experiences on a broad level he has to reach into her experiences instead of into his experiences. So there's less of a sense of past/distance there and things are thus more immediate... But it's still very "one consciousness informed by different experiences", it's just the way that's divided up in his head is really messed up compared to normal development. So the way he thinks is ~75% informed by who he is now and what he went through immediately with the Order and him and Yuuuuuu and guilt and anger and hatred and hope and all that Alma stuff, but the underlying core of how and why he thinks things is also ~25% Ladyma, except instead of being split tidily into segments that can be easily identified or made out, it's all scattered throughout or mingled in like ingredients in a meal. The dominant flavor might be pepper but you can still taste the salt.

CONSCIOUSNESS METAPHORS...

Does Kanda ever think about who he might have been in the past? If so, what does he think of it?

[outofthemud]

FOOD METAPHORES.

He's thought about it occasionally! But Kanda really can't remember... Just about anything about his past life. He has memory dreams ans familiar feelings and hallucinations but he didn't really recall a lot more than HOLD ON I'M ON MOBILE

More than those early memories (and it frustrates him he died and the seal is still there.

But he's had fleeting thought! He'd think more about who That Person might have been and why he loves her, but he's settled into his current identity now so hhis curiosity for his past life is more to do with wanting back the memories that were taken from him.

Alma's thought on what his past life might've been like?